Sometimes I feel like no matter how hard I try to do something, it NEVER goes right for me. Ever. Not to sound negative (because if there is one thing that I despise, it is negativity), but it's true. I am an extremely superstitious person. I believe that if there is someone in the world that does not wish you well; and I mean SERIOUSLY wishes only ill things upon you, they will happen to you. And lately, I have been getting this strange feeling that a lot of people that I know would rather see me fail than find success. All the while hoping that I am still rooting for their success. It's not fair. It's personally draining me. To the point where I no longer care about anything. It's like I have become completely numb. And I know (yet don't know) exactly why.

Maybe I need some rest.
Or a vacation.


Oh well.